I have goals.. and I know i have a long way to go. If I don’t enjoy these steps along the way, I’ll never get there. I’ve got to stop being so hard on myself! too much of your own pressure only creates anxiety. Healthy pressure comes from encouragement.. and just writing that out feels very unveiling.
If I was talking to my best friend, I would be an overflowing with support! So why is it so hard to treat myself the same way? I suppose because the enemy lives right next to that friend. The side that is quicker to cut with a criticism. “That rep didn’t count! You’re weak and tired. You’re not improving. Your goals are too far away, you’re going to be stuck at half-way-there indefinitely, then you’ll crumble all together.” The friend side says, “Look at the numbers! You have improved in some areas! There are still other things to try to get over this plateau! Bodies like those you admire take YEARS to build, so you are on the same path as all the role models you look up to.”
It’s natural to have doubts, and right now they’re just really strong and mean. It hurts! I’m really struggling to hang on to the positives and keep that voice from being crowded out. I just have to keep going, keep pressing, keep polishing myself… maybe there is a gem underneath…. just maybe….
Man… It seems like the more I try to eat the less it appeals to me. if I can’t get more protein into my diet I’m not going to get anything more out of all my hard work, and bust through this plateau. Hm. It’s harder than it sounds apparently. Maybe I can just work on getting 2 blitzs in a day instead of one, then try 2nd lunches. I’ve been trying to get in 2 breakfasts and even that is a strangely a struggle, lol. Baby steps, I guess.. It would be nice to have some tips from a pro!
O training Gods, Let me make it through today’s workout with power and focus. Please help the BCAAs go down without making me nauseous at every sip! In the name of the Reps, the Sets, and the Holy Iron, Amen!
I’m feeling it’s that time again, to revisit goals and stoke the fires of my motivation! It always makes me feel good to see where I want to go and what I want to do with myself. It’s all up to me and it’s all possible!
I like focusing on my nutrition and making tweaks with it. This goal has to do with upping my nutritional intake: I need to add more complex carbs and protein. Since I’m not making the gains I think I should be, I believe this particular change will benefit me.
Another facet is supplements. In this goal is to take them properly and on time. Sometimes I waffle with that, as there is a schedule and it can get tedious at times! But this one is easy, so moving on!
The next goal is all about my training. This is big~ To train every day EVEN IF IT’S NOT PERFECT. I will very easily get hung up on thoughts like, “that set wasn’t good enough” “I’m not focused enough” “I’m not improving”. I often think, If I’m not 110% present and giving it my all, I feel like it’s not moving me forward. Because, does anything less really get you there? Whatever the answer to that is, this goal is to accept my efforts, and strive to improve my focus. Every workout I need to practice my mind-muscle connection, which is my gateway to that all important focus for one, and two, to the results I so badly would like to see: bringing up my hamstrings, calves and glutes, and an overall gain of muscle and super sexy definition!
It’s all about commitment. Every day looking at these positive words and putting them into action. After outlining all that, I’m feeling quite pumped!! Excited about the power I have to do this for myself. It is so very vital to me to do this work. It drives me.. and I love it.
My new trainers came in the mail today, and it couldn’t have come at a better time! Time waits for no one and the count down is well in play. Summer is coming and that’s a fitness goal in itself! We plan to kick off pre-summer With the Detroit Electronic Music Festival Movement, and I couldn’t be more excited. The thing is, my workouts have been lacking lately. My fractured focus has been frustrating me to the max. No one likes to leave the gym feeling scatterbrained, and dare I say worse than when you went in because you don’t feel like you were as centered as you need to be to make the changes in your body you are trying to. And that is where I’ve found myself. I set everything up for my sessions so it’s not for a lack of planning… It’s very frustrating. Not feeling like I’m there in the moment or if I find myself daydreaming between sets really bothers me. Having a solid mind-muscle connection is vital to my results and pride in my work!!!
I’m hoping that these new kicks will give me a boost of excitement and focus to help me get over this slump. I’ll be happier when I’m working harder and clearer. Training is what I love. I hope this BS is just temporary and ends today! ^__^
The only time you burn less calories than when you’re sitting down is when you’re laying down. -Paul Plakas
There is so much going on in my fitness bubble lately! And right now, it all has to do with the Arnold Fitness Expo!!!
Ever since I came across this event in my Oxygen magazine several years ago, it has been a goal of mine to attend… and it is finally happening!! I can’t wait to be square in the middle of thousands of like minded people and brushing elbows with some of the best in the fitness industry! It’s going to be a rush walking in and finally making myself a part of such a massive event! Sure, I’m on websites, read books, magazines, get emails, snail mail etc to keep up with the fitness scene… but making the trek down to Columbus and seeing these professionals eye to eye will add a whole new dimension and depth to this huge part of my world. I’m sure I will be humbled, and maybe lose my voice if I actually get the chance to meet some of my role models!! *!!!Whew!!!*
I already have lists going of things I need to do to prepare~ what to wear, hair makeup, nails, a list of what to take, electronics to charge, etc! And of course, it almost goes without saying I’ve been very much focused on my training and eating “clean”. It’s helping me be more tuned in than usual, because I’d like to look as great as possible when I walk in.. feel like I earned it, you know? 
(Plus it helps me work out all my excitement!)
I can’t wait to see what the 700+ vendors will be bringing that’s new to the market, and just let myself wander the booths and see what it’s all about! It’s going to be fun to collect as many free samples and shirts as possible! I’m hoping to discover a few things there that are perfect for me, my training style and goals, find a few new websites and supplements, as well as leave there awash with renewed motivation, a great sense of belonging and confidence. (^__^)
Anyway, tonight is arms and cardio, plus getting my hair trimmed for the Expo! Gotta look crisp! Happy training!~>
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It’s a new month, and I couldn’t be more excited! Another 31 days to see how well I can do, work on my stats, refocus on goals and surprise myself on how well I can really do. Last month was absolutely a disappointment in the numbers game, so I’m very happy to put it behind me!
Unfortunately, today is not my best day to be recommitting to all these things. I haven’t been able to sleep for the passed 3nights, and it is taking its toll. Perfect example the times you really have to dig deep, and fight against the feeling of solid lead permeating your body and slowing your mind. I know I will feel better about it in the long run, so it will be some uncomfortable now for that great feeling later. Hopefully, looking over all the things I want for myself and my body will give me the boost I need, they are often inspiration in and of themselves.
Whew!
What a great workout today! Even worked my triceps to failure For some reason whenever I’m at that failure point, I stop growling and just start laughing! Here I am struggling against the impossible chance I’ll finish that last rep or two and just giggle at the sight of myself stuck! It’s good to have a sense of humor in the gym! You still gotta smile when you’re giving it your all!
I have also discovered that I am going to learn to do a one-handed push up if it kills me! I’ve wanted to be able to do it for a while… I feel like I have the strength, but not the technique… I can’t even do _one_ on my knees, and that doesn’t seem right. I’m going to keep working on it though, I’d like to show that off to my husband! 
At the end of my training, without even realizing it, I gave myself fist-bumps in the mirror, like “Good Job Me!” Which is also pretty comical. It’s good to feel good y’all!
